You’ll be in my heart.

I’m proud of you Hallmark.  This year, you actually didn’t miserably fail my unique family.

I found an almost perfect card (as good as they get, I guess) for my birthmother.

On the front, it says “For all the ways your love has touched my heart and my life….(and on the inside), “Happy Mother’s Day.”  Voila, it doesn’t say “MOM” written everywhere, but there is still truth in it.  But that’s not all.  It also lets me record 10 seconds of saying something.  And I recorded this.  “Mmmk, Yeah I’m definitely a dork for getting you a talking card!  But basically, I just wanted to say that I love you and that means forever.”  And then?  It plays a clip of “You’ll be in my heart” from Tarzan.  Ironically, a movie about adoption.  And that song has always reminded me of my birthmother.  From the first time I heard it, it did.

And I also got her a funny card too.  It reads, “You’re not just my mother anymore.  You’re my friend too.  You’re a mother/friend.”  And on the the inside, it says “So really you’re a “frother.”  Happy Mother’s Day.  Frother.”  Haha, she’s a frother!  I mean, it’s not that funny, but I tried.  And again, there’s truth to it.  We have that “in-between” relationship which is truly awesome.  I’m a lucky girl to get some mothering and some friendship from her. 

I was going to send her flowers, too.  But I just don’t have the money right now.  In fact, two girls in beforeschool today asked me if I would sponsor an injured rabbit for $25 dollars.  And I admit, I probably looked like a heartless and mean individual, but I said No.  Though I did tell them I was proud of them for trying to do something good.  And I am.  But with the money I do have, I choose to give to ministries that help people.  People are more important than rabbits.  I’m sorry.  I know that sounds awful, but it’s true.

There is more to write, but I’m still trying to rid myself of this semester.  So it’s back to the books for awhile…

Come stop your crying~It will be alright~Just take my hand~Hold it tight~I will protect you from all around you~I will be here~Don’t you cry~For one so small, you seem so strong~My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm~This bond between us can’t be broken~I will be here~Don’t you cry~Cause you’ll be in my heart~Yes, you’ll be in my heart~From this day on~Now and forever more~You’ll be in my heart~No matter what they say~You’ll be in my heart always~Why can’t they understand the way we feel~They just don’t trust what they can’t explain~I know we’re different~But deep inside us, we’re not that different at all~And you’ll be in my heart~Yes, you’ll be in my heart~From this day on~Now and forevermore~Don’t listen to them~Cause what do they know~We need each other, to have, to hold~They’ll see in time~I know~When destiny calls you, you must be strong~I may not be with you, but you’ve got to hold on~They’ll see in time~I know~We’ll show them together. <3